Do need not worry about life. Truly, there are times you wish you could do this or try that, perhaps it will be your 'head way' but, what a moment! Have you considered going back to your Head? Yes, you should, try to find out from God and "Whatsoever he saith unto you, do it". There is always a way out with him, because He's the way. All you need is in God! Praise the Lord.